Monthly Archives: October 2006

Gone fishin’

Some dog

This blog is on indefinite hiatus.

Additional note, Thursday 11/2: Thank you all, so much, for your comments and emails. Regular posting will probably resume here sometime after late December, with significant changes in intent and focus. (Read: less politics without cause, less involvement in others’ arguments.)

Along these lines: Wapsie, way down in comment number 52, poses a question that I thought deserved your attention. I repost it here for your convenience. I have an answer, of sorts, perhaps to be explored in 2007, perhaps not. But the question is worth asking even without an answer.

See you in January.

Beautiful dog.

I’ve had the thought that blogs are “over.”

It’s a question worth posing on every blog:

What has all the good writing, the confirmation that there is really Someone Intelligent and Caring out there, actually accomplished—besides making us feel a little better for a few minutes?

Be honest about that. Even with the really big-time blogs. What real, solid gains—for people other than the big bloggers themselves, who enjoy a quasi-celebrity and a quasi-legitimacy—have been made because of blogs?

I’m not posing the question to put this blog down. It’s thoughtful, it’s well-written. But Chris himself mentions doubt about the real utility of blogs among his reasons to go on hiatus.

I think it’s a doubt worth addressing.

What is this medium for, exactly?

Realizations

– After I’d been able to put aside worry about Zeke last weekend, the days when the blog was down were the happiest, most relaxed I’ve had in months.

– Becky’s response to my thought about taking the blog offline was “Yeah, I think that’s a good idea. Because I’ve missed you.”

-There have been several unanticipated consequences of my post “First they kill your dog,” including a pile-on of another blogger, and people I respect interpreting the post as my calling them cops/thugs/dog threateners, etc.

-I have other things to do.

-Friends have expressed their own doubts about the value of blogs as a tool for political writing, and I find them extremely persuasive.

-Most times in my life when I’ve wanted at least once a month to quit doing something, there’s been a good reason.

-The main reason I have not quit this blog at those times is that other people tell me they don’t want me to.

-Despite my gratitude for the immense generosity of the vast majority of my readers, I am unenjoying this blog more often than I am enjoying it.

Taking a walk

c&z

I was at the door within ten minutes of the place opening. Becky and I had gone for the long walk to think things over Saturday afternoon, and by the time we got back with our decision made, they had closed for the rest of the weekend. “What if someone else beats us to him?” Becky had asked, at intervals, the whole day Sunday. I promised to be first in line, and I was.

The woman behind the desk looked up at me, recognized me from Saturday. “I’d like to take one out for a test drive,” I said. “You wanted the dog in the first kennel, right?” she said, and she went into the pound area to go fetch him.  The big firedoor slammed shut, and then opened again and she handed me the leash. “We usually take them just a couple blocks around the neighborhood. Here’s a plastic bag in case you need one. Have a good walk, Kelev!”  Kelev was straining for the door, the leash taut.

It was a gorgeous, sunny morning in West Berkeley. The shelter is in a mixed light industrial and residential neighborhoood, cement block buildings cheek by jowl with Mission bungalows and cottages, effusive gardens run wild in the sidewalk verges. Santa Barbara daisies made huge billows of needle-thin flowers on dark purple leaflets. Brugmansia flowers hung redolent and gorgeous. He pulled on the leash until we were a block away from the shelter, then relaxed a bit, sniffing here and there along the way.

I wasn’t sure what I had expected. He was not boisterous, he did not nip at me for attention nor cower from me. He knew how a walk was conducted, and he got right to it with his work partner at the other end of the leash. This was supposed to be a shakedown cruise. Becky and I had agreed that if I thought he might be difficult, I’d decide against bringing him home. He was the furthest thing from difficult. I suppose I had expected more exuberance toward me, more immediate affection. But this was good, this down-to-business thing. This could work. We crossed Pardee Street and walked down Ninth to Grayson.

He turned right at Grayson, probably out of force of habit from the shelter people walking him that way, and began sniffing at a big rosemary. He was a handsome dog, all right, though what was going on with those ears? Huge enough to pick up satellite TV, I decided. Wolfy-looking tail there, for sure, always a plus, and nice tawny coloring, and though the shelter folks had told us Saturday he suffered from separation anxiety and needed lots of attention, he seemed pretty relaxed. I made my decision. Time to pop the question. I squatted, got his attention. “So Kelev, do you want to be my doggie?”

He walked over and put his forelimbs across my thighs, his mouth in a wide panting smile, looking at everything in the world except me. Close enough to “yes” for me.

A long-haired man in plaid flannel walked past on the other side of the street, saw us, smiled. “So whattaya think of him?” he asked. “I think I’m keeping him,” I said. “I wasn’t talking to you,” he replied. Back at the shelter the woman was jubilant. “Kelev! Yay! You get to go home!” “It’s Zeke now,” I said, writing the check for the thirty-five-dollar adoption fee.

We went to the Ecology Center, where I worked, only three blocks away. He stayed there with me while I worked that day, though I got precious little work done as my co-workers and I played and fed and generally indulged my new dog. At five I turned on the answering machine for the Recycling Hotline and shook the leash, and Zeke and I walked six miles home through Berkeley and Oakland.

November 4, 1991.  A week from today will be fifteen years of walks.

I used to wonder what Kelev’s life was like. He was well trained but seemed to know no English. He knew how to sit perfectly well, but took an hour or so to realize that “sit” was the word his new humans used to tell him to do so. The same went for “stay” and “come.” (He was completely fluent, however, in “No.”) He was housebroken — almost, anyway, as two months in the shelter had undone that somewhat — and completely at ease with small children from day one of his life with us. I have tried and failed to imagine what might have prompted Kelev’s people, who obviously took good care of him, to give him up. I would sooner live in a cardboard box. I hope their decision came without too many tears, because they cannot possibly imagine how much that decision meant to me. You who gave a tan, seven-month-old puppy named Kelev to the Berkeley Humane Society in Autumn 1991, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for him.

I’m posting this a week before the anniversary, because I don’t plan to be anywhere near the internet on the annniversary. You know where to find me: out doing the work I was born to do, my partner at the other end of the leash.

You guys rule. Zeke wags tail.

Now usually I’d not just lift a bunch of text from any blog to run nearly unaccompanied here, let alone from a post written by a Native American because of that whole shameful history of appropriation and such of property intellectual and otherwise. But I’m gonna excuse myself just this once and reprint just a little bit of a post by Mary Beth Williams.

You know: like how we were gonna take just a little bit of land.

we were incredibly shocked when the readers of two relatively mid-sized blogs contributed more in three days to Wampum than the total sum of donations last year. My dear friend Susie Madrak of Suburban Guerilla started the ball rolling and within hours, her readers had contributed enough to cover the cost of critical repairs to our towing vehicle’s brake system (estimated at between $500-700.) The following day, Zeke Clarke, and his pet, Chris, of Creek Running North, requested their readers contribute to our generator fund, and wow, did they come through. Last night, at 11:03 PM PST, I placed the winning bid on EBay for $935 for a 3000 watt Kipor generator, which will allow us to run this year’s Koufaxes “off the grid”, whether it be boondocking in the deserts of Southern California or on the beach in Baja.

Deborah Tall

To understand New York’s Finger Lakes, imagine a well-worn field plowed twice a year for generations. All that grows is gouged away, over and over, without remorse, without exception. The very lakes themselves were scraped out of the earth by a mile-high sheet of ice, and that ice was merely the most recent in a long series. Those who lived there when whites first arrived were driven out, murdered and burned and forced into refugee camps to die of dysentery. Settlers set the subsequent woods ablaze time and again to “clear” the land — the nineteenth-century appellation “The Burned-Over District”  does not refer solely to Western New York’s endemic millenarian religious fervor. The onset of the 20th century was the subtlest pass of the plow: the land’s economy faltered in the 1930s, never to recover.

Deborah Tall, who died last week of cancer, was disappointed with her new Finger Lakes neighbors when she arrived at a teaching post at the north end of Seneca Lake in Geneva. She found the present-day human component of the landscape sadly lacking.

No one’s about to step out of the woods and tell us what in another place would be subject of song and legend — oh whale who wandered from the sea, stalled in lake water, turned to stone…— the landscape brought to life as story. I need to learn the plot and poetry of this place, the outlines of time passing on it, in order that it not be merely scenery. But my neighbors are reticent, sedentary. They mumble and nod the rare times we pass on the road. No one, as in my rural fantasy, has come by with a welcoming plate of homemade cookies, with chat and advice, not to speak of legends. By nightfall, their houses give off the platinum glow of television. We’re left to our own devices.

That passage, from near the beginning of her 1993 book From Where We Stand, sounds like scene-setting for the usual fish-out-of-water-meets-locals schtick, where the writer’s imaginings and stereotypes are dashed, only to reveal the true, humbling richness of the local culture, which enchants the writer-tourist immeasurably and irrevocably. As if to point up that expectation, Tall followed the passage above with references to Pueblo culture as relayed by Leslie Marmon Silko, the Ronga of South Africa and the Masai of Kenya, the Romans and the Apache. Double-barreled foreshadowing all.

But that first act shotgun on the end table is never fired. The locals are flat, impassive, odd in an alien as opposed to heartwarmingly quirky way. They are pretentious white trash. They let their Colonial houses fall into disrepair and hang engines like deer carcasses from front-yard sugar maples. They shrug off the potentially colorful decaying downtown in Geneva in favor of eating at the Ponderosa Steakhouse up on Preemption Road. They open businesses that then close, with no new quaint businesses to take their place. Tall is forced to import her picturesqueness from other times, other places. The Far shore of Seneca Lake, the ridge that rises up to run back down to Cayuga on the other side,  becomes the Connemara of her memory. An abandoned drive-in where route 96A meets US20/NY5: the Temple of Karnak. The few locals who provide interest are either dead Depression-era painters, or 19th century writers. Tall talks to one local Seneca, as far as I can remember the only living human being in Geneva with an actual speaking part in her book aside from a few of Tall’s similarly isolated colleagues at Hobart and William Smith Colleges.

The other locals — the disappointing inhabitants of the post-glacial, post-Haudenosaunee Finger Lakes — become extras, if not props. Tall admits as much on page 55, when she writes:

[I]t comes as a shock to drive up to the Dunkin Donuts here for my coffee one morning and find it darkened, a hand-lettered sign on the door: “Closed Due to Death in Family.” That a family stands behind the franchise counter is altogether unexpected.

The first time I read that passage, I threw the book across the room in a fury.

I know that I have readers who knew Tall, and more who respected and admired her, and this harsh appraisal of her writing so close on the heels of her death may seem unnecessary and cruel. I beg their patience. I say “the first time I read that passage” above because I have read it many times since. I have read the book entire many times since.

Another quote from the book:

But in declining upstate New York, transplanted European names echo more and more ironically. After living here only a few months, hearing on the radio that a meeting of Nobel prize-winning scientists is taking place in Geneva, I gasp with pleasure, then wonder where they’re staying — at the town’s one hostelry, a dilapidated motel on Routes 5 & 20?

That dilapidated hostelry, the Chanticleer Motor Lodge, suffered a setback during its design phase a half-century ago. The designers had assumed an adjacent landowner would sell his lot so that they could raze his small house and put up Atomic-Age motel rooms. But unlike his neighbors, the man didn’t budge. They built around him, and his small house is still there, the motel hard up against it, though the recalcitrant owner — my great-uncle — died some years back.

Clarke Equipment is neither donut shop nor franchise, so if Tall needed her lawnmower tuned up and drove it to the little shop three or four miles west of her college, she might have been less surprised to find a living, breathing man with a family behind the counter. My father’s brother Jack opened the place when he gave up dairying. But if she’d walked into his efficient, plain, and somewhat grease-covered workshop and expected local color along with the spark plugs and air filter, she would likely have walked away as disappointed as she was with her other neighbors. The story is there. My uncle has known searing grief and quiet contentment and sharp joy. None of them are put out for display like the fancy new riding mowers out front, facing the highway. They are his concern, and not his customers’. I am his nephew, and I feel, writing this, as though I am intruding. The stories did not come up greeting Tall at her front porch with a basket of jellies because they do not walk up and present themselves anywhere. I was born into the stories. They are mine by birthright. And yet I heard few of them until I was nearly forty.

My father’s family is thick on the ground in Geneva and the land around it. My mother’s family lives up and down that far Connemara shore across Seneca Lake. My siblings and I were born in the village of Penn Yan, near where Tall first settled when she moved to the area. Reading Tall’s book for the first time, I felt I was reading an erudite, cultured, well-researched and privileged savaging of everyone to whom I am related.

That anger boils up in me again as I write these lines.

And yet I have no right to that fury. The year that Tall took her job in Geneva was the year I left New York.

The Seneca grew corn and beans and squash in this soil. George Washington — playing Realpolitick in the New York frontier — sent General John Sullivan to the Finger Lakes in the autumn of 1779 to wage war on the Seneca, who had allied somewhat reluctantly with the British. “War,” in this case, is a bit of a euphemism. Sullivan and his 3,000 troops waged genocide, leaving a swath of destruction up the east side of Seneca Lake that anticipated both Sherman’s march and the use of Agent Orange on Vietnamese farms. Thriving agricultural villages were burned, peach orchards razed, longhouses torched, women and children and elders massacred, and the survivors — their food supply deliberately destroyed — fled to winter with the British along Lake Erie, where they died by the thousands, of starvation and dysentery.

Fast forward one hundred fifty years, and my taciturn grandfather — a tenant farmer — drilled beans into the same soil from which Seneca bean farmers were routed. One day it came time to slaughter one of his herd, and he sent my father off on some important task at the far end of the farm. My father could not bear to watch an animal killed, and so Uncle Jack and my grandfather waited until he was out of sight beyond a rise before bringing out the knives. In those years they lived on a farm with small red brick house, L-shaped with a wing of bedrooms on the second floor. The closest town was Seneca Castle, named for a fortification that has been restored, whose caretaker Tall portrayed in the book. The Seneca history of the land is too little told. The land is as drenched in blood as it was beneath my forebears’ feet that day more than 60 years ago. A book entire about the Seneca, the deep map of ancient stories on the land in Ontario and Seneca and Yates counties, would be one I could read with an altogether different rage in my breast, one I would not think to hold against the author. But to dissolve my whole family into a faceless, banal mass? It was as if having failed to learn any of the local story, Tall decided it simply was not there, a miasma suffused in television light and enclosed in fast food cheese paper.

But Tall moved there, and lived her life there, in Geneva and Penn Yan and Ithaca, and drove the roads and watched the planes take off and land at the Seneca Army Depot, the runway lights flashing on just before approach, mysterious and malevolent cargo there to leach into my aunts’ and uncles’ drinking water. She stayed her life and added to the place, edited local magazines and sponsored readings.

I left.

It is an issue of town and gown, I suppose. I have bitterly resented the academics, the privileged and fortunate both, enjoying a life of mind that has been denied me due to accidents of birth and biology and happenstance. This rage itself derives from the Seneca County soil, which my mother tried unsuccessfully to shake off her boots after high school. She headed for Manhattan as soon as she could, but was back within months, trapped in a drafty house on a ridge above Penn Yan with a silent husband and a swelling brood of children. For years she lived vicariously through me, her oldest. Nearly from birth until we moved a hundred miles away, she told me in a thousand little ways that I was destined to leave. (And leave I did, though not at all in the way that she had planned for me.)

In all the years we lived there, in all the years after we moved to Buffalo in which we spent weeks out of each year visiting relatives, growing from birth to adulthood, I met exactly one person in the Finger Lakes who was connected in any way with a nearby institution of higher learning. That person was my father, who worked for a few years running an IBM System 360 mainframe in a non-academic role at Cornell. He may, in fact, have been the only person I met for the first six years of my life who even had a college education.

Tall writes, on the slippery boundary between tourist and local:

A car pulls out right in front of you on a two-lane road. You have to slam on your brakes to avoid hitting it. It creeps along at twenty miles an hour, turns off a few hundred yards down the road. You lean on the horn, let them have it.

Next day, you only have to go a short way down the road to pick up a neighbor. You pull out of the driveway as you do every morning and meander down, indignant at the out-of-state Buick that races up onto your bumper, honking. You let them have it.

My mother’s sister’s husband, a farmer, found a glass sponge in the 1960s while plowing a field twenty miles north of Ithaca. In the 1990s news broke that a Cornell paleontologist had found more of them nearby, and the find made the global news, and I remembered the fossil my uncle found which had been sitting on my grandmother’s porch during the intervening decades. I called her to suggest she talk to the paleontologist. She wasn’t at all interested. She told me that I should call myself, that she’d be glad to show him the fossil if he was interested enough to drive all the way to Ovid. I called Cornell, left a message on the paleontology department’s voice mail with my phone number and my grandmother’s and more information than they really needed about the fossil, and neither of us heard anything from Cornell after that. The lack of enthusiasm for the other side of the campus boundary runs both ways.

My grandparents, my aunts and uncles have never been anything but kind and generous to me, and yet my mother’s thwarted need to leave suffused my bloodstream along with the polio and smallpox vaccines they gave me in my first days at Ovid Central School. I read Tall’s sidelong sketches of the faceless people living along Seneca Lake and raged at her insults, and through my anger I agreed with her, which made me rage all the more.

Her book was unflattering, not least in what it showed me about who I am, the stupid shame at being still un-degreed, the resentment of the young with doctorates who make assumptions, the resentment of my fellow un-degreed who make assumptions, the gulf between me and the people from whom I come.

I have read it yearly since the day I threw it across the room. I wish I had thought to tell her that, to grab a cup of coffee somewhere and make my ill-formed arguments, to see her nod or flinch or tell me where I was being unfair, and now I cannot. It is too late.

There is a slab of marble ten miles west of Geneva, still upright after a generation, diminutive and with a carved lamb atop it, thirty years of rain having rounded off the detail. It has my cousin’s name on it, and my uncle stood by as they lowered her into the soil the Seneca once cultivated. She was only a toddler in the days before child car seats, and she is surrounded by her grandparents and great aunts and uncles, an array of tombstones with my last name on each one. I was a child when she died and I remember her, and I know well my uncle grieves her still though he has never mentioned her to me since, and though he would not have talked of her to a customer in his shop I would gladly have talked of her to a fellow poet. But I did not, and now Tall is there with little Carol, forever home in a place that is my home no longer.

Fun with unanticipated consequences

A happy result of the Big Zeke Love Fest of the last few days is only now becoming apparent.

A fair number of people, outraged at the thought that Zeke had been threatened and that I’d turned the blog off for a few days to gauge the threat, made supportive posts or comments on other blogs linking to the “System Offline” message you might have seen when trying to access the main page.

Some of these people were loquacious and elaborate in their outrage. Others were very terse. A few merely said “some people are incredible assholes” or “this makes me absolutely blindingly furious” or the like, with a link to the System Offline message.

Many of those links now resolve to CRN’s front page.

Can anyone explain to me why this fills me with glee?

First, they kill your dog

Antitoxics activist Paula Siemers remembers the night two men attacked and knifed her on a Cincinnati street near her home, following earlier incidents of harassment in which she’d been stoned and knocked unconscious, her dog had been poisoned, and her house too had been set on fire.

That’s a line from my friend David Helvarg’s extremely important book The War Against The Greens, part of a litany of attacks against environmental activists by rightwing thugs.

“They ran up behind me and they punched me and hit me. They just came out of nowhere and I didn’t even know I was stabbed. I just thought they’d beat me and they ran off, and someone screamed and said you’re bleeding and I don’t remember much after that.”

Siemers’ dog had been killed in the previous attack.

In the same chapter, Dave offers the story of Jack Woodard, a doctor in Albany, Georgia who worked with Tony Winter, a Republican environmentalist. Winter was suing Merck for heavy metal pollution from a local factory, which had likely caused a stillbirth in the Winters family. For his efforts, Winter suffered an attempt at murder when the bolts were loosened on his van’s front axle. Jack Woodard was an outspoken advocate of the Winters family in meetings with Merck lawyers: unknown assailants stole his forty-pound mixed-breed dog in March 1993, killed it and drained its blood, then dumped it on Woodard’s driveway.

Two examples pulled from a book I happened to have within ten feet of my computer. There are more. In the Spring of 1992, investigative journalist Jonathan Franklin wrote an article for The Muckraker, the newsletter of the Center For Investigative Reporting, on the burgeoning attacks against environmentalists. Franklin’s article — sadly, not available online — was an important precursor to Helvarg’s book, detailing a rather astonishing number of threats and attacks against grassroots environmental activists. Even in those days before most of us environmentalists had email accounts, Franklin’s article was copied and forwarded widely. I think I got a dozen copies in the mail.

The title of Franklin’s article, from a sentence spoken by one of his interviewees: “First They Kill Your Dog.”

What happened this past weekend here at Creek Running North was neither shocking nor new. It wasn’t even the first time Zeke has been threatened in comments here. (According to site statistics, one of Jeff Goldstein’s readers dropped the little gem to be found in this thread.) Most such threats are spurious, offered up by cowards as a way of shutting down discussion and never to be backed up with any of the actual risks involved in leaving Mom’s basement and venturing out into the bright, bright sun. But some of the threats are serious, and some attacks come without warning. We environmental activists — the people Kos derides as frivolous detractors from the important issue of getting DNC anti-environmentalists elected — we have faced this shit for a long time. We have martyrs.

My sense of this latest threat is that it sprung from the same source from which, I’ve decided, much of the seemingly pointless internecine warfare in the progressive blog community in recent weeks derives: deliberate pot-stirring by rightist thugs.

Some informers and infiltrators quietly provide information while keeping a low profile and doing whatever is expected of group members. Others attempt to discredit a target and disrupt its work. They may spread false rumors and make unfounded accusations to provoke or exacerbate tensions and splits. They may urge divisive proposals, sabotage important activities and resources, or operate as “provocateurs” who lead zealous activists into unnecessary danger. In a demonstration or other confrontation with police, such an agent may break discipline and call for actions which would undermine unity and detract from tactical focus.

— COINTELPRO Revisited, Brian Glick

I’m not necessarily suggesting an organized campaign of disruption by the right. For one thing, it wouldn’t need to be organized. We are a fractious, quarreling people, and a few free-lance online provocateurs could easily set huge battles raging across the left blogopshere’s ridiculous landscape.

Further, we on the left possess all the flaws and frailty we need to do ourselves in without help from the “other side.” An example springs to mind. Marc Faletti, the first-among-equals at Punkass Blog, recently suffered the death of a dog he loved, his ex-girlfriend’s sweet dog Calla. Just four days after Calla died, Marc’s co-blogger R. Mildred decided she could use Marc’s grief to her rhetorical advantage:

Oh and your scaving tonage is justified, someone is being mean to you, you can fucking bring it or you can whack off with your politeness and shoot your dog (again).

And while you and others may find that offensive, I choose to believe otherwise, and I posit that as I am a femme, and heterosexual and white white white, my made up out of wholecloth contextless analysis of reality is as good as the real thing.

When called on her callousness, R, Mildred upped the ante:

Hey! He says he went to a funeral, I say he didn’t, can’t we just agree to disagree?

If I say he fucked his dog to death, and he says he didn’t, well both opninons are equally valid, we’re all fair and balanced here.

Zeke and I got — literally — hundreds of notes wishing us well, expressing horror at the notion that anyone would deliberately use a person’s love of a dog to inflict emotional distress in the service of online political argument, and asking what kind of horrible person would do such a thing. Above is one answer. No one but Marc’s friends Quin and Amanda objected on his or his ex-‘s or Calla’s behalf: R. Mildred is a popular, edgy, progressive blogger. As far as I’m concerned, her act was worse than the threat against Zeke: I was quickly able to write that threat off as irrelevant, and Zeke is still here. But R. Mildred has a posse.

Blind spots are amazing things.

Blind spots are complemented, in many cases, by tunnel vision. The threat having been made against Zeke, many people were all too ready to interpret the situation to support their view of their own pet issue. It’s proof that anonymity is important or dangerous. It shows how wrong or right Ann Bartow was. (Need I actually say that Zeke’s friend Ann bears no responsibility for the threat against him?) My taking the blog down temporarily was an act of appeasement to the terrorists or an understandable and sadly permanent acquiescence to appallingly bad people out there on whatever side is opposed to the observer. And on and on.

I am soul-searingly grateful for all the good wishes, and I will presume upon your goodwill to ask that Zeke’s admirers — and detractors — try not to make this episode some sort of Internet Rorschach test. I see precious little black and white here. As I said at Pharyngula, I am not so naive as to think that the police have any interest in tracking down the source of an anonymous online threat against a dog. Trying to subpoena the records of the anonymizing web proxy the threatener used would earn me more, and more credible, threats from the Slashdot crowd. It is over, and all I can do is:

1) take steps to block access to this site from such proxy servers, which plan is underway;
2) pet Zeke and give him London broils on demand;
3) forgive, as the boundary between dog-threatener and respected online presence is sufficiently diffuse that I cannot discern it with any real confidence.

There is something else I’ve done, and if you are angered enough at these events that you want to do something concrete to make things better, you can do it too. It’s easy and straightforward.

This person, whether misguided progressive or malevolent wingnut, sought to build and deepen rifts in the left online world. Mary Beth and Eric Williams and Dwight [i don’t know Dwight’s last name] Meredith over at Wampum run the Koufax Awards, which more than any other single online event builds a remarkable unity and camaraderie across the left-progressive-feminist blog world. They are doing it again this year, Mary Beth says, despite some misgivings after some nominees violated their trust last year. (That’s one more thing I found more disheartening than the threat Zeke got. Cheating in the fucking Koufaxes?)

There is a tool that would make the Wampum folks’ work on the Koufax Awards much easier this year, and it’s pricy enough that they cannot really afford it without some help. The awards will go on without it, but this tool — a generator to run their off-the-grid tech setup — would make it happen at a lower human cost, and more environmentally sound to boot.

The person who made the threat against Zeke tried to erode our community. You have all responded with truly touching emotional generosity to this threat. Let’s slap that thug’s face, in a non-violent metaphorical sense. Drop a few bucks on Zeke’s behalf to buy the Wampum folks that generator. The threatening asshole brought us all together here: let’s take advantage of that to accomplish the opposite of what he or she had in mind.

And thanks to all of you who wrote, blogged, spoke, and IMed me about this, most of all Zuzu, who was first in line to rip the miscreant a new one. Y’all are mensches.

San Dimas High School Football Rules!

A message from Zeke to his admirers

Under the fur that covers me,
Walking a piss from pole to pole,
I sniff whatever good may be
From any random-passed asshole.

When I brush Chris’ cactus plants
I sometimes wince or cry aloud,
But for an online thug? Fat chance.
My leg is lifted, and bow-wowed.

Here in this place of dried pigs’ ears
I have attended and obeyed,
And those who menace with vague fears,
If you ask me, can go get spayed.

It matters not how vile their hate,
How lame-anonymous their troll,
I am the master of my plate:
I am the captain of my bowl.

Back to the positive

I will be appearing on the Air America show EcoTalk on (i think) Monday, at 9:00 PM Eastern. There is a podcast available. We taped it today: I talked some about the desert border issue and then host Betsy Rosenberg and I reminisced a bit about working at Verde.com and talked about the state of green media.

[Update!] Confidential to Ali B.: the SF Bay Area airing is at 960 AM, 9:00 pm Monday. Oct 23, if I’ve got the schedule right.

[Updated again] Or not. Email from the producer: they didn’t like the show and won’t be using it. I’ve been invited back to try again, and will let you all know.

Outing sucks

And the negativity starts up again. But we’ll get back to the positivity in the next post.

I said something general and tentative about pseudonymous blogging in comments here that Zuzu found irritating. I regret that she took what I said personally, mainly because 1) she’s got plenty of good reasons to blog pseudonymously which are 2) not my call in any event.

Zuzu mentioned my having pissed her off in comments here.

In that same comment thread, a dispute arose between Zuzu and Ann Bartow, which culminated in threats of legal action.

Just in case anyone’s unclear here about the distinction: I encouraged people to consider making statements under their real names if possible. I understand that some people might disagree with that suggestion, and for various good reasons. I don’t have all the right answers, ever. I may have lost Zuzu’s friendship and respect over the dispute, and that makes me sad.

But there’s a huge difference between my suggestion — which people are free to ridicule with no hard feelings on my part — and explicit threats of legal action accompanying more or less veiled threats of outing.

That sucks. Please, Ann. Drop it.

Update: Ann clarifies her intent in comments at Feministe. I’m very glad to see this. I like Ann, and was saddened to think she’d do such a thing. Still. This never should have gotten this far. It’s a good reminder that we all need to step outside ourelves ourselves, though do step out of your elves as well if necessary and imagine how our actions and statements might appear to others.

Grateful

Why wait until November? The blog world has been an unpleasant place the past few weeks, and I think it’s time some of us started picking out a few blogs we like and linking to them, and saying why. I’ll go first. Here are some of the bloggers for which I’m grateful, with an emphasis on those who as far as I can tell don’t get way more traffic than I do.

Wampum: Do you read Wampum when it’s the Koufax off-season? You ought to. MBW and EBW and Dwight are one of the best blog teams around, with wide-ranging expertise including but not limited to Native issues, disability, and global realpolitick from a progressive POV. (EBW’s also been known to wield a deft cluestick outside Wampum from time to time.) The Koufices, of course, are a stunningly generous effort: the Wampum crew spend more money on the awards each year than they take in in donations (though you can always help them defray those expenses by picking one of the donation methods linked in their upper left corner.) I’ve rarely seen a community-building effort to equal the Koufax Awards, and Wampum deserves our gratitude for putting the things on each year. And this week, what I’m most grateful for is the Wampum crew’s work to promote the idea of bringing the National Guard back home without waiting around for the Bush administration to do so.

Ilyka Damen: I’m pretty sure my first interaction with Ilyka was of a hostile nature. I don’t remember what it was about. She used to support the war in Iraq, so it might have been that. So many blog pissing matches, so little time. Hard to keep track, you know? But Ilyka did something that happens vanishingly rarely in the political blog world: she paid attention, listened to arguments, weighed the outcome of events, and she changed her mind. This week, I am inordinately grateful for anyone who can display that level of intellectual flexibility. She brings me hope that there really might be some other future than rampant polarization, and that there might be people on the current “other side” who are repulsed by racism and sexism. Also, it’s hard not to appreciate someone who posts something like this.

Kevin Andre Elliott: Another one who’s not afraid of considering and reconsidering. Kevin can make pointed critical commentary with the best of them, but you never get the sense that he’s neglecting the humanity of the person he’s criticising. He’s also a better writer than I am. Which I hate, of course. But what can I do? I am fatalistic about such things. Kevin’s blog Slant Truth is about equal parts poetry, politics, and the metapolitics of alliances real or idealized. And he’s a dog person. Almost reason enough to go back to the Finger Lakes for a visit.

Zuky: I’m just getting to know Kai’s writing after he dropped a note here. Strong opinions without rancor, a heightened aesthetic sense, and more optimism than I think I’ve seen in any one person for years. I’ll probably have more to say the more I read his stuff. Until then: read his stuff.

More to come in the next day or so. Feel free to steal this idea for your own blog. The positivity can only help these days.